Dear Friends,
I have been so overwhelmed by the incredible response I've had and continue to have to the first post I wrote on Vertigo , that I felt it was absolutely necessary for me to write an update on my own progress with this debilitating condition.
For me , it's now been three years ... and what can I tell you about the way I'm feeling and how my life has changed. Well I can say this dear friends , this condition has been awful to deal with , I still have it but I am truly grateful to the Universe it came !
Having Vertigo has changed my life completely . It has been a great teacher and has shown me how to live a kinder gentler life and how to treat myself with respect. This illness has led me to discover meditation ,which I absolutely love and now do everyday . Most importantly it has taught me patience .
I now understand that healing can not be rushed. That true healing of, any kind, must and can only come from within and in its own time and if the process is just allowed to happen with surrender and trust, the healing comes naturally and gently.
As far as my condition goes , I am still under the care of the amazing Dr Surenthiran - who is more like a friend to me now ! I'm still taking a combination of Nortriptyline and Topiramate and I'm on pretty high doses of both of these drugs - which means stronger side effects too . But the great news for me was that since January of this year I went back to work . I'm very sensible and watch that I don't overdo things, but getting back to work has been such a huge result for me because it signifies that my life is now getting back to normal again and it feels great!
So how does the future look...
I know that even though I feel ok most of the time , reality is that beneath all the effects of the medication the Vertigo is still there . I'm also well aware that as soon as I do too much and forget about this FACT and go dancing or go to the gym too often, the vertigo very quickly reminds me of its presence and shouts HEY REMEMBER ME :) So, the way forward for me it just to be really sensible about what I do and how much I do. The great news is that as long as I get enough rest I'm pretty much back to normal now . Hopefully I can start coming down on the medication soon, as long as I don't have too many set backs .
Meditation has been my real saviour. I've been doing it for nearly two years now . I find it centres me , keeps me calm and above all else it has taken me to a place where I feel I may now have started to realise that true Zen state of "no mind" . That is truly the most wonderful place to be - especially when you've come from being the complete stressed out A-type personality that I once was !!
This condition is not an easy ride and has not been easy for me to deal with . I still have days when I feel really rough and the tears come again and my positivity is tested to the max , but I am grateful that I see this now for what it is - it came to show me that my life had to change. If it wasn't for this, chances are I would not have met so many of the amazing people who are now in my life who make it all that it is - absolutely wonderful . So, all that I want to say to anyone out there who has Vertigo is please don't despair, you will get better . Give yourself time , be patient and be kind to yourself. If you need any support or just need someone to talk to please write to me , I'm here .
Love Sur x
